How many times have I written that on this site?  I really dont know, and in the end, it really does not matter.  Doctors make mistakes.  Doctors Don't know everything!  Doctors are not Gods!

But when the rubber hit the road, I was yelling "Why did not the doctors know!  They did all the tests!  What the hell were they thinking!  How could they be such fools!".

Yea, I was mad, angry, upset, pissed off, and down right outraged!  It took we a while to calm down and realize what I really was - was human.  And when it is your mother under the knife, rules go out the window.  What is logic, true, right, or just - does not matter.  I am not Dukakis.

But so far, even with my mother being on the table over twice as long, losing her whole left lung, not just a lobe, and having them repair a congenital heart defect that I did not know about (but they did before the surgery), she is doing ok.  Thank god for doctors.  Who are not doctors, but we dont think that way when it is our loved one under the knife.

She is still in CV-ICU, but doing well.  And I know she was hungry.  They told me this morning she was eating breakfast.  For her to eat Hospital food, she must have been starving!